From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

February 26, 2024

A Glory Story

Understanding

I was lying in bed the other morning, really wanting to not get up out of the warm covers, (morning temperature being around 20 degrees, and the fire needed coaxing) and going over John Chapter One in the Gospels.

Verse 11, referring to Jesus, says, “He came unto His own, and His own received Him not.”

“Received Him not” stuck right out. Similar words and phrases began listing themselves, as it were, in my brain.

“Received Him not”=Shunned Him

“Received Him not”=Ostracized Him

“Received Him not”=Disowned Him

“Received Him not”=Expelled Him

“Received Him not”=Cut Him dead

“Received Him not”=Cancelled Him

It’s nothing new. We humans have a habit of doing this to anyone we don’t like, or feel uncomfortable around, especially if they shine too much light on our dark corners, or if, by simple difference, we feel dislike, or maybe because others tell us to, and it’s accepted, even if cruel, we attack and justify it. As humans, we can manage to do all sorts of things that are bad by first convincing ourselves that what we do is somehow good.

But the act, in the heart, of “not receiving” truly springs forth from a spirit of murder. And all too often, that nurtured spirit gives birth to actual physical harm, or social harm, or even outright murder.

This list of synonyms was going through my head and landed, like an arrow, right on what is happening in the world today, and specifically in America, to our Jewish citizens.

The climate of hostility that has justified so much “cancellation” of fellow human beings in recent years, for one reason or another, has centered, at present, on Jewish people with an unreasoning, vitriolic hatred engendered by deliberate wrong teaching in places of education and egged on by media reporting that is, at best, lax. Incomplete. Hostile to Jews. A pack of murderous lies.

What one of us would not want to protect home and family?

Do we really want anarchy and murder as a solution to America’s ills?

“He came unto His own, and His own received Him not. But to as many as received Him, He gave the power to become children of God, in His Name, born, not of blood, nor of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.”

It doesn’t matter who does what. I’m not pointing fingers, since we’ve all done this to each other at sometime or other. All through history.

But it’s time for Glory to fill the earth. The door is open. Walk through and behold Him.


From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac  Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

January 24, 2024

The House By The Brook

My house was falling down. This little camp with no foundation but cement tubes and two by fours was leaning so far over that when it rained hard, people would phone to see if I’d “gone down the brook.”

It was a constant worry, and worry wasn’t faith, so I tried not to do it, but every now and then I would have a small meltdown and cry out, “Lord, why, if You gave me this house, can’t I find a way to fix it?” I knew first time buyers were stupid, but I had prayed for the right house, for God’s guidance. I also knew that the little house by the brook wasn’t in prime shape, but it was in my price range, small, on a quiet back road in the woods, yes, the house of my dreams. The Lord would help me through everything, wouldn’t He?

Everything, ten years later, was sitting on top of me. It’s not that no improvements were made on this charming clapboarded, pine-paneled cabin by the rippling brook. But a cabin without a foundation on damp ground with a waterway not 80 feet away that raged in snowmelt and downpours was not a dream. It was a daily nightmare. The summer running-water system could not be upgraded because there was no cellar. Then it broke. The toilet, because the brook was so close there could be no septic system was propane. It broke too, and it was obsolete: no parts were available. So I got a compost toilet. Let’s not talk about that.

Good thing there was a brook. I hauled water out of it for fifteen years, for cooking and cleaning. It was a beautiful brook. I loved it. But I couldn’t get around it.

“Lord,” I said, “Thank You for all of this timber! I can sell it and fix the foundation!” Loggers came. “Nope,” they said, “Too close to the brook. Can’t get a permit.”

“Lord,” I said, “Look at these beautiful log cabin plans! I’ll get a building loan and rebuild!” The log cabin man came. “Sorry,” he said, “We’d have to back up the road with the logs here, and there’s no room to turn around. Too close to the brook anyway. The ground won’t hold it.”

So I said, “Lord, look at these beautiful yurts in this brochure! One of these would be perfect!” The Credit Union said, “A what? No, we can’t finance that. Never heard of it.” The town man said “Nope. Too close to the road. A yurt is round. Won’t fit the footprint. Too close to the brook.”

I called people who knew how to fix houses. They came. They laughed. Sometimes behind their hands.

I said, “Lord, I thought I heard You right when I bought this place, but I was stupid. Obviously, You want me to give it up.” I put it up for sale. Someone with money could fix it, love it. Real estate agents laughed, or looked sad. I gave up.

“Lord,” I said, “I feel like Abraham. I’m trying to give up Isaac, but You won’t take him. I looked up the name “Isaac” in a concordance. There are two ways to spell it in Hebrew. “Isaac” means “laughter,” One spelling means “derisive laughter” and the other means “joyful laughter.”

I named the house “Beth Isaac.” “House of Laughter.”

Now I sat still. There was nothing to do. The house was so low, water rushed in the kitchen door when it rained, water and mud. I found mushrooms growing under the kitchen table. That very day someone called and offered me their house to rent for the winter. A whole winter in a real house!’ A respite.

“Lord,” I said, “Thank You. You love me. You see me. Now I know You’ll do something!” And I lived in a lovely house on a pond, with my Jewel and my cats.

In the Spring I went home. Home was overrun with mice, and the cats couldn’t keep up. I’d had the electric and phone wires taken off the house in case it fell down over the winter. I cooked on the woodstove, or outside. “Lord,” I said. “Lord.” There were no more words.

My friends Mac and Nancy came over. Mac is a contractor. He called the Town building officer, and we all stood outside and looked at the house. It sunk down below the road. “Well,” he said slowly, “Only thing we’re gonna do is let you fix it.” He left. I felt lower than the house.

Mac started to walk around, talking out loud. “This place is built like a barn, and I’ve fixed barns. I know how to do this.”

“Mac,” I said, “no one can fix this house!”

“I can fix this house,” Mac said. “When I get through with this house, you won’t recognize it!” And he walked around, pointing at this, that, and the other thing he would do. New sills. New everything, piece by piece. A foundation, frost walls. There was excitement in his voice.

I went for an equity loan. The Credit Union said okay, if I could get an insurance quote.

Lloyd’s of London was the only one who would touch it.

It was summer, July 13, 2007, when we broke ground. Mac came over with all the equipment and started on the sills. He came with his chain saw and sawed out the kitchen floor, then the living room floor, Then the house went up on cribbing.

My friends Nancy and Pat came over and helped me get stuff out of the way, first. Then I moved out back to the little island between the brook and the runoff, and set up camp. It had a six-foot woven wire fence, to keep my mother from worrying about wild animals eating me. It had three tents, a screenhouse, and an outdoor shower. Cooking was on the stone fireplace or on a propane campstove. A Navy Seal friend said it “looked like a d–n outpost.” My pastor, who had recently come back from Uganda, looked around in wonder and said, “This is just like Africa.” I loved it.

Everyday my little house got torn up and rebuilt a little bit more. Everyday I came out of that camp and laughed.

I laughed and raised my hands to the sky and danced in the middle of the road. “Lord!’ I laughed, “Thank You” I could almost hear Him laughing, too.

It took a few months. The foundation didn’t get poured until December. (The foundation guy always went to Colorado every fall to hunt, customers or no.) I spent the cold months in my neighbor’s camp, with my cats, who were glad to finally get indoors. My house didn’t have walls or clapboard yet.

On Christmas Eve, I came home to find a friend had hung a huge Christmas wreath on my new white door. And she’d had a plaque made. It said,

“Welcome to Beth Isaac”

I laughed and laughed. I live in “The House of Laughter” next to an island in a brook, in the woods.

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This article was first written around 2014, and has been sitting in the rolltop desk. It’s high time it got out, and will be the forerunner to what will be “The Glory Stories,” because there are too many stories of God’s goodness to me to count.

Also, it’s time I mentioned that I have a book on Kindle, available on Amazon, published in 2013. Published under my real name, Kathleen A. Callahan, its title is “The “R” Word/ What is Repentance?” A short explanation of this maligned word, and readable, and cheap, 99 cents, it seems there could never be a better time than now to mention it. We need it to save America.


From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac  Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

December 13, 2023

Ice Storm Aftermath

Note: This article was originally written on December 13,2008, after a two day ice storm. It was the first time I had picked up the pen (except for journaling) since, really, high school. It was the glory of the light filling the room that did it.

When I read it to my Dad, he nodded and said slowly, “Now that…paints a picture.” That reaction gave me hope to try more.

It’s also my little?! brother’s birthday, so Happy Birthday to you!

The Mandy-cat stares at me composedly from her seat on the porch rail, touching up her fur now and then in the frigid air. From my seat in the couch corner, bundled in sweats, wool blanket and a comforter, I clutch a rapidly cooling cup of coffee, waiting for the woodstove to heat the room. Mandy hops to the porch, off to wherever she deems interesting in the frozen world left by the ice storm of the past two days. Suddenly she is back, pressing her pink nose against the glass, green eyes wider, if possible, than normal. I guess she really wants in this time, crawling out from my wraps and opening the door just wide enough for a cat. Wouldn’t want the puppies to get a nose-hold out the door. The idea of a training session on that ice is not enticing. “Get in here,” I say to Mandy, and she says something in her trilly voice that must mean “Thank you.”

Sitting back down, suspiciously dehydrated sounds from the coffee pot on the woodstove haul me up again. The fire is cranking at last. Mandy and the Gennie-cat, (named after Guinevere and she knows it) are crowded as close as they can get to it in back. Angling in another piece of wood, I sit back down and remember the coffee pot. Up again. Down again. The room is warming up. Out the window, the sun is struggling past the treetops of the ridge opposite the house, promising, if not much warmth, surpassing and sparkling beauty in say, five more minutes. I find I am eagerly awaiting this; having seen it many times before does not dim the excitement of trees gleaming purely in light, every detail of the golden hue shimmering, seeming to whirl in delight more than any ballerina in the Nutcracker Ballet.

The power may be out in the house, but not in this outdoor palace wherein my little white house resides. The treetops do glisten. It’s not a fairytale, it’s glory, glory that shows up every spot on the windows I should clean. Instead of despair at the grime, it makes me want to clean them, which is, of course, going to make me get up.

Gennie sits on the back of the armchair, gazing steadily at the increasing light. The puppies, both gangly curly heaps, are asleep. It’s the kind of quiet you can almost touch, only the ticking of the cast iron as the stove heats up and the blazing sun lights the room.

From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

April 21, 2023

Ready And The Snake

As they grew, Ready and Abel’s coats changed from straight, easy to groom, black and white to a kind of hair I’d never seen before. Nightmare hair. The straight stuff started to disappear, replaced by two layers of curly, Abel’s silky, Ready’s rough. The colors came in marbled, although not on the white paws, ruffs, faces or tippy tails, just everywhere that used to be black. Now, they had Sheepdog hair, and that’s what you would think they were, at first glance. Long, gray and white marbled hair, with every single recessive trait the Dog Book could name. Red streaks, black streaks: “Most objectionable.” Waves and curls: “Most undesirable.” I’ll say, because you really could not brush it out. It kinked. They’d come in plastered with mud from the boggy fern bed, or dripping wet from the brook, or with one ear stuck over an eye with spiny burdocks, or twigs twisted at the ankles, or in their armpits, so to speak. I never took them to a groomer’s; it would have cost a fortune, daily. I had good grooming tools, but it was the scissors that did most of the work, till by Summer’s end, you would have thought they’d been shaved, anyway. They had the long Sheepdog hair over their eyes, black button noses, and sweeping Golden Retriever plumy tails. People would meet them and say, “They’re beautiful!” (on a good hair day) and then, “What are they?”

They both walked like Sheepdogs, a mincing, careful gait. It was when they ran that the different breeds really showed up. Abel had the long Retriever legs. When he took off, he stretched, speed gliding over rough ground while barely touching it. Ready was shorter, a little powerhouse of joy. When she ran, she sprang. Up!-and galloping, boing, boing, boing, a look of uncontainable glee all over her face.

But Abel could usually catch her. He could outwit her, too. He’d get a toy, and never let her grab it, although he might tease her off the couch with one, mainly so he could steal her seat. He’d rock back and forth, “Grrrr!” and “Rrrrrf!” and she’d leap from her nice cuddle spot next to me-and he’d usurp it, the rascal.

The path down to the brook is in a broad area, a great place to run. In the days of the New Hampshire hill farms, it was part of a pasture. There’s still bits of fence and a stone wall. Now, it’s shaded with old hemlock trees, and floored with low-growing evergreen yew bushes, horsetail, wild ginger, wildflowers in the Spring.

We went down that way one Summer’s day. They were careening around as usual, gliding and boinging, when I looked up. Abel was trying to catch Ready, and he couldn’t. The reason why was hanging out of her mouth. A garter snake, limp with fear and trepidation, had been nabbed off the earth by my little tracker. The joy of the hunt was in her eyes; I could see them for a change, because she was moving so fast the hair whipped back, and they were shining with dog laughter. She’d stop a second, toss her prize in the air, catch it deftly, whip it around and spring into the air again just as Abel was about to pounce. She wasn’t letting him anywhere near this! The snake was terrorized; if it had had a voice, it would have been saying, “Aaaaaaaah!” Abie couldn’t understand it; he’d always been able to nail her before. But there’s a big difference between a plastic toy and a real, live snake. Her blood was up and racing, along with her springing, galloping feet.

I watched this circus for about twenty minutes. She never tired, Abel never gave up. I thought the snake might be dead from fright, or at least in a coma. So, at last I said, looking straight at the goddess of the hunt, “Do you want to go in the house and get a cookie?”

She stopped. She dropped the snake. It did not move. They both turned to go, headed for the house. As I passed the snake, who was only about a foot long, I poked it with a stick. Nothing twitched. I took note of the spot, and went to go give the wild things their cookies.

Next day, I went back, but the snake was gone. If snakes were storytellers, imagine what it would have told its grandchildren.

From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

April 17,2023

Ready And Abel Meet Steven Tyler

In the summer of 2008, when Ready and Abel were 14 weeks old, we stopped in at out favorite pet store. We were regulars, usually after work. The staff loved the puppies, we got treats, yakked and had fun.

At this stage, their coats were still straight, shiny black, snowy white on the faces, huge white paws, a white tip on each tail and white ruffs. Ready’s came around to a perfect point on her back neck. Abel’s met and formed a crescent swirl right in the center. They were puppy round, floppy-eared, waddled a bit, Ready shorter than Abel, a little hard to tell apart. They wore silver-on-black Celtic pattern collars with matching leashes and puppy smiles. They made people just melt into puddles.

It was a hot September afternoon, so this time I was just going to grab two big frosted cookies and get them home out of the Subaru. I got up to the counter-it’s a small place, so I noticed a couple at the back with a tiny puppy. “That’s Steve Tyler!” Pat the groomer said. (I have since learned that he prefers “Steven.”) “I’m getting the puppies!” I whispered back.

Now, I have to admit, I am more partial to the Beatles than Aerosmith; nonetheless, “Dream On” is a fantastic song, among others, but even more than that, everyone of my siblings are fervid Steven Tyler fans. They would be all agog. Quickly, I went back out and snapped on their long leashes, and led Ready and Abel in to see what would happen.

When we came in, Steven was at the counter cashing out. Not having any intention of directly approaching him, the puppies and I checked the aisle kind of nearby. He must have seen them out the corner of his eye, because he turned and leaned down.

“Hi guys!” he said to Ready and Abel, who immediately headed right toward the friendly voice, straining their long leashes to get there. His hand was outstretched. He was pretty casually dressed, maybe a T shirt, a chain hooked to his belt, and jeans, fashionably ripped. Rock star on his day off. I noted, to my alarm, that one of the fashionable rips was directly above his right knee, conveniently located at just the right height for two little puppies, now eagerly on their hind feet, to put their paws. Abie had a tiny sharp dewclaw, and he was on that leg.

I thought, “Please God, don’t let him catch the man’s skin, no blood,” and said, “Careful, he’s got a sharp little claw.’

He looked up from scratching their ears and heads, and his glasses made his eyes huge. The eyes were kind, interested, direct. “What kind of dogs are they?” he asked.

“Well, their mother is an Old English Sheepdog, and their daddy is a Golden Retriever.” I was determined not to gabble, but they liked him, just wagging all over, so I was beaming. “Wow,” he said, or something like that, and then he had to finish cashing out.

We went to get the the big, carob-frosted cookies then, and Steven had gone back to the girl with the puppy, so we were cashing out when the two of them came by again. They were on their way out. “What are they going to be like when they get older?” he asked. I laughed. “Nobody knows. It’s never been done,” which, as far as I knew, was true. “How fabulously cool,” he said. I thought so, too.

His very pretty friend was wrapped in the most lovely cape, holding her puppy protectively in it, under her chin. Our eyes met. “How old is your puppy?” I asked. “Fourteen weeks,” she said in a tiny voice.” “That’s the same as mine! Do you know his birthday?” “No,” she whispered. Okay, leave her alone, she’s shy and no wonder. So, I just smiled, and they left.

There was nobody else in the store, so Pat and I chattered a bit, pretty excited, although she said, “Oh, he comes in here all the time.” I was so pleased Steven had liked my puppies and was so interested. I was also quite pleased that I had not fallen apart. I can’t be sure I would have held it together had it been Paul McCartney. (Sorry, Steven.) But I suppose I would have resorted to saying how I’d always liked his Sheepdog Martha.

Of course, we raced home and I called my whole family. They were in fact very impressed and wanted every detail. Even my mother, who was 75 at the time, and had been watching “American Idol” got pretty wild. My mother was like a kid! My brother, who is an excellent guitarist, loves to hear this story over and over, and I love telling it.

When I remember this event, I see the kind eyes, and feel great relief that Abel did not draw Steven Tyler’s blood with that dew claw.

From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

April 4, 2023

Ice Melting

On March 1,2017, I wrote, “Get out of the way. The ice has melted.”

I say again, and although it is mud season here, and the ice has melted, it means another thing.

They’ve crossed the line. They will not escape the flood of cleansing the Lord is unleashing.

America is His country and He’s taking it back.

Run to Him now, to the fire of His love, healing, forgiveness.

Don’t stand in the danger zone.

Run home.

Shut the door for a little while.

From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

March 29,2023

Ready and Abel

They aren’t here now. You’ve read about them in many of these articles, but I had to put them down in 2021, very close together, and I miss them everyday.

But I wanted to tell you about their beginning. It’ll make you smile.

It was Bonnie-again. She had gotten two puppies-Maggie, an Old English Sheepdog, and Cooper, a light blonde Golden Retriever, whom I saw often. I was dogless at the time. Jewel had been gone since August 30th, 2007, right during the rebuilding of the house, and the house still had a long way to go by Spring. But the three cats and I were back in it.

On June 4th, Bonnie called. “Maggie’s having her puppies.” “Wait a minute,” I said, “Isn’t this Jewel’s birthday?” “Yeah, it is,” Bonnie said, and I said, “I’m coming over!”

Now, Maggie and Cooper had no business having puppies. They were six months old when this began, but finances prevented Bonnie from getting them to the vet’s on time. So, when Maggie went into heat, she put her in a large heavy-wire crate. Cooper found a way, twice. It must have been painful, but the deed was done.

Maggie knew me well. Starved for dogs, I would sometimes take her for rides in the truck, give her treats, visit, give them both treats. They were such wacky, loving little beasties.

So, when I arrived at the front door that rainy morning, Maggie arose from her travail and greeted me along with Bonnie, wagging her little self and nosing my hand.

Then, she turned around. And dropped a puppy on my foot, square on my left sneaker. Bonnie and I looked at each other. She carried the tiny thing into the whelping bed in the living room, and I cleaned it off. It was a girl, She lay quiet in my hand.

“I think that one’s yours,” Bonnie said.

Up to that very second, I had not been ready for another dog. But I nodded. It was too direct to be anything else. This five-inch scrap of warm, wet, black and white puppy was mine. She was ready, and suddenly I was, too.

Maggie was now very busy having more puppies, and I put mine down on the bed, so she could be with her mother. There were twelve in all by labor’s end.

Over the next five weeks, I visited frequently. They had a beautiful wooden puppy pen my neighbor had built ahead of time, snug by the woodstove. It took a lot of blanket changes to keep it clean. Bonnie’s husband, who had a few problems, got grouchy. He didn’t like them in the house. It was Spring. He put them all outside in a pen one cold rainy day when Bonnie was at work.

Then, Maggie went back into heat again. All she could think about was how to get to Cooper. She was barely feeding the puppies. Bonnie, early as it was, got to finding good homes for them, fast.

So of course I agreed to take mine. “But I have to have two, to keep each other company.” Did she have a male? There was one left, a wriggly, fat-bellied little guy. I picked him up in my hands and lifted him to my face. That pink tongue came out and licked like mad, so in contrast to his quieter sister, who gave delicate little kisses and snuggled. He was just happy all over, and he always was a face-washer.

Now, what to name him? It had to go with “Ready.” Well, they were half sheepdog. “God, what’s his name?” Sheepdog….well, Abel, of Biblical note, was a sheepherder. It was a play on words-“able,” converted to “Abel.” Yes! Ready and Abel!

They came home in the big garden basket lined with the red woolen McDonald plaid blanket. They fit perfectly. The basket still hangs on the big beam in the kitchen, and the blanket is still on the wooden rocker by the woodstove- where Micah is sleeping right now.

They were starving and so young, just five weeks old, but it had to be done; there was no telling what that man would do, if they’d stayed.

I raised them to start on goat’s milk and plain yogurt. Then they got little bits of canned food, good quality. They thrived. Their paws were huge. They played, they snuggled, they went everywhere with me, because by that time I was cleaning houses, and all my clients were entranced. And how else was I going to get them fed and housetrained and socialized?

Now, these two were no elegant Baron and Jewel. They were bumbling, happy and hilarious. And I knew exactly what happened.

In Heaven, Baron and Jewel went to Jesus. They’d been watching me. “Give her puppies,’ they said. “She’s too sad. She needs puppies that will make her laugh, and she needs to know they are from us.” Well, they were. Half Golden Retriever, like Jewel, and half Sheepdog, like Baron-not the magnificent Tervuren, but a wildly hairy English Sheepdog, with Retriever plumed tails, born on Jewel’s birthday. And so, Jesus sent me puppies.

They healed my heart, and I laughed.

From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

March 2, 2023

Baron

He was the most stunning dog you could ever imagine, but he wasn’t that way when he came. He was a scared bag of bones. We met when Bonnie-it’s always Bonnie-found him at a friend’s rescue shelter, and came knocking on my door, because she knew my family had lost a German Shepherd named Baron when I was a kid.

Jewel was over a year old at the time, and was exhibiting signs of separation anxiety when I had to go to work. I say “signs.” She didn’t like being left alone, and she was stating her case plainly. I came home, twice, to find the living room floor littered with, strewn everywhere, bags of beans, split peas, rice, blackeye peas, lentils. She had taken them off the kitchen shelves and ripped them to pieces.

I was so mad I was speechless. Good thing. Silently I pointed to the mess. Silently I put her in her crate. Silently I swept, vacuumed and cleaned it up. Quietly I let her out. She was subdued, but the next day she did it again. I knew it was separation anxiety; she never did destructive things before, so I said, “Hey God, we have a problem. I think Jewel needs another dog.” I mean, the cats weren’t doing it for her, obviously.

Enter Bonnie, that November afternoon, right on cue.

“There’s this dog-he’s a Belgian Tervuren Sheepdog, and his name is Baron. He belonged to a supposedly good family, but the husband lost his job and started to drink. He started beating his wife, and one night Baron had enough and attacked the guy. The guy beat him off with a chair-you should see his head-and the cops came. The wife is in the women’s shelter and Baron is over at my friend’s shelter. You’ve got to go see him.”

Of course, we went immediately. Tom came out and led me over to a doghouse. Baron was chained there during the day, and he was pacing back and forth, eyeing us. Tom walked up and put his arms around the dog. I approached slowly and held my hand out, and Tom said “No, you’ve got to put your hands on this dog, so he knows you’re not scared.” So I did, and this huge longhaired black and fawn beast with the skin hanging in loose folds and the bloody wounded ear quieted at once. We had an instant bond. He didn’t want us to leave.

I said he and Jewel would have to meet, so the next day we came over and did the introductions, or they did. The two of them were smitten, tails waving, leaping around, absolutely besotted.

Well. If Jewel liked him, there was the answer. I told Tom I would take him, and left my oldest smelly sweats with him so he could get a good whiff of his new home overnight.

Next day, I told Jewel I would be “right back.” And drove off to get Baron. I’d brought an old leash, unhooked him from the chain, snapped on the leash, and he jumped right into the truck. He crowded as close as he could get, and I just kept talking to him all the way to the hardware store.

He had a beat-up leather collar I was keen to get rid of fast. Bad smells, bad memories. I selected a royal purple collar with a matching leash. Then, his very own food bowl, and a big water dish, because now I had two dogs. And a treat, a big one. When I got back to the truck, I poured water for him, and he drank like no tomorrow. Off came that nasty old collar, on went the royal purple. With his black hair and magnificent head, it transformed him. “You’ll never be the same again,” I told him. He sat erect now, eyes straight ahead, all the way home.

I put the leash on to go inside. “Here he is, Jewel,” and they were so happy to see each other you’d think they’d always been together.

I had to go outside to do something, so Jewel came, and not knowing if he’d stay yet, I left Baron inside. But there burst out of him the most heartrending cry, deep, long, desperate, and so, I said, ” You want to come? Will you stay?”

No need to worry! He never left. The two of them played like puppies. He leapt upon me, kissed my face, ran all around, huge feathered tail waving, black hair and fawn-colored legs, silver undercoat, streaming like a banner. When I called, he came. Running. Jewel too. That very first day, I learned something I never knew existed. Hearts have elastic strings. We were a triangle of heartstrings. They moved like a unit, poetry in motion, and if I called, they’d both come running, at a tear, at attention. “Did you call?”

Early on, it became evident Baron had digestive trouble. It was a very nervous stomach. Anything commercially cheap, or pork, God forbid, was out of the question. It took a month and the kitchen rug hit the dump before he was better, and even after that, occasionally that poor tense gut would erupt.

He went to my vet’s in the first week for a checkup. His leash manners were perfect, and I’d combed all the mats out of his hair. The bloody wound in his ear was healing. But, at his size, he should have weighed about 100 pounds; on the scale he was 75 pounds. My vet, a wonderful no-nonsense Old-Yankee-stock farmer with a heart of gold, listened as I told Baron’s story. When I got to the part “so one night the dog had enough of the guy beating his wife and attacked him,” he shouted “Good dog!” and scooped the astonished Baron up onto the exam table. He ruffled his head, checked him over, and gave him his shots. All the staff admired the hero. Baron always turned into a wimp at the vet’s; I’d have to hold his head in my arms, but he rather liked it there. They liked him.

In fact, he knew he had a very good thing with me, and Jewel. He became very protective. If someone came to the house or even the truck, I had to keep a watchful eye and hand until people were settled. Then, he would come and greet them properly. But no one would ever have tried getting near the truck when he and Jewel were in it alone, ever. Or the house. A very few people , my Dad, Bonnie and her girls, could do it and he was just fine. And he was beloved at the boarding kennel-but I wasn’t there. He got friendly. Then, I’d pick them up. At first, they’d just stand there, dazed. Then, “Oh, it’s really you!” You could almost hear the words. Jewel would bark like crazy. Baron gave the same heart-tearing howl cry I’d heard the first day, and suddenly we’d all land in a heap on the kennel floor, crying, slobbering, hugging like mad. Then we’d go, and all the staff had to say goodbye. One girl would say, “Goodbye, Baron,” and he’d kiss her gently. “Did he give you any trouble?’ I asked. “Oh no,” Beth said, “they were wonderful. I wish all dogs were like them.” We’d walk out of there and cram into the little Toyota pickup truck, so proud. My dogs were stars!

At home, once Baron’s health was restored, he became the most magnificent dog. Together, with Jewel’s leggy elegance and their colors blending perfectly, they were a sight I couldn’t get enough of. That’s not to say they didn’t come in with half the forest stuck in their long coats. The grooming sessions were endless. The results were worth it; shining blackened silver and fawn, tawny red-gold, all flags flying, chasing each other round and round, change directions, do it again, come in, flop on the floor, wiped out.

Jewel never ripped another bag open again. Instead, she did that to her stuffed animals. She really thought she had something on him there, which she didn’t. Toys were not his thing. But when I’d come home with a new one, she’d take it, a gleam in her eye, tail up, and she’d have a little prance. Then, in front of him, she’d rip it to shreds, kill the squeaker, and have the stuffing all over the living room, and he’d watch, unperturbed. It was a lot easier than cleaning up rice, and the remains rested in her toybox.

But if they got a marrow bone- Aha! She knew where to have him. I would display the bones. They would sit. One bone went to each waiting mouth. Jewel hit the floor and demolished hers. Baron took his, head lifted grandly, tail on parade. He had to take his outside. Where he hid it, or so he thought. Immediately upon finishing hers, Jewel would have to go out. The little wretch would find his fine, meaty bone, and consume it right in front of him. He never minded. He loved her; she could have anything.

Baron loved the cats, and they loved him. They would curl up right in his side and sleep, while he watched over them tenderly.

We’d go on hikes, do the loop, down the four-wheel, up the ridge, through the woods, down again, home, all summer, every morning. There’s a small pond, just the right size for a hot dog. He’d go in, up to his neck and soak in bliss. then climb out, happy. Jewel wouldn’t. She didn’t like deep water.

Now, porcupines. We had a few brushes with them. The first two, with painful extractions, were bad enough. I could get the quills out of Jewel, but Baron would get upset; it hurt. I was hurting him. So, every time, he would land at the vet’s, get knocked out, and de-quilled, and come out groggy, but calm. You’d think he’d learn. But no, he had the urge to conquer.

One morning, on top of the ridge, I spied him pawing at something. It was the most enormous porcupine. Jewel was standing next to me. I looked at her and said, “Don’t you dare…” and the look she gave right back was the most disgusted “Do you think I’m crazy?” Baron came over in a minute in the most horrifying shape, so full of quills, in terrible pain, and we were a mile from the house. I leashed him and we walked home at a clip we’d never done before. Got the keys, popped him in the truck, and he rubbed his wrecked face all over my gleaming new white sweatshirt, in agony all the way. Joseph took him right off. They came out an hour later, Baron stumbling from the anesthesia, but quill free. He never did it again. My sweatshirt was toast.

The two of them truly loved hiking in the woods. We would fairly often run into wildlife. Sometimes we’d go to a nearby State Park, where dogs were permitted to run loose if they were trained well.

One afternoon we took a fairly long trail, and they were loose, but I had the leashes ready in case we saw people, or anything. I don’t know why, but neither one of them noticed the immense Moose with the Rack, right in front of us, but their noses were to the ground. “Baron. Jewel,” I said in a low voice, snapping my fingers. Unbelievably, they came instantly, and I had the leashes on before they had any notion of what they’d missed, and when they did, they stood still. The moose, more alert, had left abruptly, looking neither right nor left, he and those long legs headed down the slope and gone-it only took seconds. Really, I couldn’t believe how good they were, and I told them over and over. When they got loose, they sniffed around but didn’t give chase. They never would have caught up, anyway.

We did have a younger moose stop by the house once. In those days, I was in the habit, since there was so little traffic, of taking Baron and Jewel out for a quick run in the early morning. I’d get a cup of coffee and wrap up in my big red bathrobe. They’d run, I’d stroll. There was a noise. We turned. There was a moose-a very tall young moose with little short antlers. Baron was next to me; I grabbed his collar. Oh, he wanted to go! Jewel went, barking wildly. I’m screaming; she looked the size of a squirrel next to this thing. It was too much for the moose, the red wacky dog, the red screaming human. Exit, Stage Left, straight up the mountain, headed out. I was shaking like a leaf. What if he’d kicked her? Baron was busy checking footprints. There is more than enough excitement on a dirt road.

I never knew just how old Baron was. We estimated about three years when he came. The stomach trouble never cleared up completely, even with a home-cooked diet and good weight management. His insides were just on high alert so much, and I can only guess that that was at the root of what finally did him in.

It was early in May, when he was probably 10, that he started having some gut trouble again, acted uncomfortable. I called the vet, but then he seemed to recover. And then, one evening, he came walking across the living room, lopsided, unsteady. I’d never seen a stroke in a dog, and it was late. We’d have to go in the morning, if I could get him into the truck. ‘

But it didn’t matter what I thought I was going to do. He got worse rapidly, and went down. In the morning, flat out on the kitchen floor, he really couldn’t move. There was no one around; no one was home. I couldn’t lift him. He was in pain, tense. Jewel lay in the kitchen door, watching. I’m stroking him crying, praying, “I shall walk before the Lord in the land of the living.” I wanted a miracle so bad, to see him get up and be his beautiful self. But he started to heave, and cry and retch, and then, as I was holding him so tight, sobbing and saying my Scripture verse, Jewel made a little cry.

Baron left. He was not there.

He wasn’t hurting anymore. I knew. He really was walking before the Lord in the land of the living.

But we were stumbling around, bereft and dazed.

Later in the day I was able to get ahold of my neighbor Jane. It was a foretaste of what we would do with Jewel a year later. We put him in the back of the truck, because he was too huge lying down to put anywhere else. It was Jane, her five strapping kids, 80 year old Bob, the shovels, and the edge of Jane’s pasture, in the shade, near the brook.

Never was I so glad for friends. When he was six feet under, I found a big rock. Bob said, “That’s a good rock.” It was. I planted orange daylilies later, and daffodils. He was next to Jackie, Jane’s old dog. It was a good place for Baron to rest.

Jewel never ripped a stuffed animal open again. If I bought her one, she’d hold it in her paws and rest her chin on it. Baron wasn’t there to watch.

But now? Now they run free. Sometimes, I can hardly wait to see them.

From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

November 10, 2022

Jewel

The first time I saw her, she was a three month old puppy, lying, head erect, amid dropped pears in the yellow September sun. She was under the tree in my friend Bonnie’s front yard.

“There’s a puppy outside,” I said to Bonnie as I came in. “Yes,” she said, ” I put her out there because it’s quiet, and away from the others. She has a broken back.”

Bonnie finished the story, explaining that a neighbor boy had climbed the fence to see the puppies, and fallen in, landing on this one’s back. He was okay, but the little puppy couldn’t walk. She would recover, the vet said, but the swelling would take time to go down.

We visited through the afternoon, went to see Jenna and all her bouncing puppies, saw Bonnie’s kids, and then it was time to go. “Do you think you could take the puppy home to your house till she gets better? It’s quieter there” It certainly was. “Sure,” I said. “You’ll get attached,” she warned. “No I won’t,” was my cocky answer.

So we went out front, and I scooped up the little thing from among the pears with all the yellow jackets on them. “What’s her name?” “Jewel,” Bonnie said, “because she is.”

Jewel lay on the seat beside me in the truck. She sat close. We got home, and I fixed a blanket on the floor for her. She really couldn’t stand at all. To go out, I’d just hold her up and she did what she had to do. So I put her on the couch with me. She snuggled.

Suddenly, I knew I was hooked. I called Bonnie. “I was wrong,” I said. “I got attached.” She laughed. “I knew you would!” “Can I keep her?” :”Sure,” she said. And that was the beginning.

Jewel never had an accident in the house. I took her everywhere. She slept on the bed with me. Her hair was marvel; she was a Golden Retriever with a soft, wavy coat, not thick, sleek and shiny, from her black perfect nose to the tip of her plumed tail. If you can imagine a deep orange pumpkin mixed with a daffodil, you’ll have her color. If you’ve ever seen a Touch Me Not, also called Jewelweed, her hair was an exact match for the blossom.

I was in a bad way at that time. My naivete and desire to help everybody had gotten me in over my head. A “friend” I had met at work had singled me out. I didn’t realize she was a sexual predator with a long string of conquests. She told me of her hideous childhood, abused by her father and grandfather. She just wanted a friend, to feel safe, she said. And I threw my heart and soul into this quest for her healing. I told her about Jesus; I didn’t know I was getting emeshed until I was–but I was straight, and innocent. She was on a stealthy campaign to make me otherwise. In the end, it didn’t work. There was a lot emotional pain, stupidity, realization, and breaking of bad patterns, until I got free and sent her packing. There are some people who only want what they want, and not what’s good and true.

But Jewel. I had, in her, something that broke the trap; a little dog whose heart was pure love, that I could love without measure. The obsession with the other began to crack.

And Jewel healed. In about two weeks after coming home, she started standing. Then she tottered. Next, she walked. Her legs got stronger, and she began to run. It’s just a dirt road here, quiet, surrounded by woods; she could go anywhere, and go she did. It was like she’d been shot from a catapult. Long legs stretching, she streaked through the trees, leaping, bounding through the brook and back to me again, face licking, she’d put her paws on my shoulders and just be happy.

She loved rocks. She’d go into the brook and start prying them out, making the most goshawful caterwauling, and then come back triumphant, with one in her mouth. There was a pile in the living room. So, I put them in my old doll cradle; Jewel’s toybox.

When she was over a year old, we got Baron, and that’s the next story. Baron died when Jewel was nine.

Jewel lived a very happy life, and was a joy every single day for ten years.

The summer we rebuilt the house, I noticed she was out of breath a lot. There was a bone on her back ankle that was knarly. “Old” I thought, and “arthritis.” She stayed on the Island with me and slept in the tent, the cats going in and out all night. She loved the cats. They loved her. We’d walk down the road and they’d all three come. But she was limping. And the last week in August, suddenly it was more. The bone knot grew. She was obviously in excruciating pain.

I put her in the truck. We drove, it was hot, I stopped to give her water, but she didn’t want it. We got to the vet’s and she limped inside. It was empty, and they took her right away. The X-rays came back. “Cancer,” said the vet. “This kind starts in the lungs and goes to the bones.” She looked at Jewel. “That’s a tough little dog to walk in here like that.” Did I want chemo? No, I did not. Jewel was not going to suffer one minute longer.

They gave me a few minutes with her; she lay on her side, panting, hurting. “You saved my life, you know.” My sanity, my soul, my heart from destruction. She knew. Baron. She missed Baron. “Do you want to go see Baron?” The tail thumped. And thumped. “Okay,” I said, “I’ll send you to see Baron.”

The vet came in. Jewel was gone to see Baron in seconds.

The vet techs came in. They had a stretcher. They carried her out to the truck, and they actually thought they were going to put her in the truck bed. “No. She’ll go up front with me.” I picked her up, all 80 pounds, and put her firmly on the seat where she always sat. I think they were horrified, but I didn’t care. She was going home with me.

My neighbor, who had Jewel’s sister, helped me bury her. We did it on their land, because mine is too rocky by the brook to dig anywhere. It was me, Jane, her five strapping children and Bob, a friend of theirs in his 80’s, digging a hole. They loved her too. We laid her in, covered her up, and prayed. I put a big quartz rock over her. She would have loved it.

Later, I planted Jewelweed, just the color of her hair. It comes up every year.

From An Island In New Hampshire

By Banah Isaac Wright’s Hollow, New Hampshire

October 28,2022

Leaf Fall

They went today. A strong wind blew up, and the leaves that had been hanging on to their trees had no choice but to let go.

When I looked out the window at eight o’ clock this morning, the low-growing beech tree whose skirts had sheltered much of the

island from sight, still had its glowing burnt orange leaves. When I looked again at ten, it was totally bare. Its curtain was now the forest carpet.

Out in the wind, as I strode to the brook, loving the strength of it, hearing the roar in the woods, I looked up. It was raining leaves,

thousands of them, hitting the ground with dry taps. The branches were bare, except for one taller tree, its last yellow survivors glittering in the sun; and waving like flags..

Even the light had changed. For weeks, we’ve been bathed in gradually softening light, as the heavy green canopy changed to gold,

to orange, to red, to bronze, to brown. The sun glowed through them, and the light was glory.

Suddenly, it was a stark white from a cobalt blue sky. There was nowhere to hide. All the shady places were completely exposed.

Tonight, I’ve come inside and lit a fire. Its flames have the golden orange color that we just lost outside.